The Lord’s Prayer – Give us what we need each day… Part Two
A few posts back I wrote about the line: Give us this day our daily bread in the Lord’s Prayer and how it was, once again, challenging me. (In order for this to make sense, it might be worthwhile to go back and read that post.)
The other way this particular line of The Lord’s Prayer is once again striking me is in praying for what we need, not what we want each day. I think sometimes it is easy to blur the line between what it is that I actually need each day, and the things that are merely wants.
Am I selfishly and without thought spending the money we have on things that are completely unnecessary? How much is too much of a ‘necessary’ thing? Am I being a good steward of what God has blessed me with already? Am I squandering away the money that God has provided for us on extras?
On Saturday we were out with the boys and I was so tempted on so many occasions to buy a cute little this and a cool little that for the boys. It is so easy to justify purchases, especially when they are for others. But that is not good stewardship.
Take the very real example that is weighing heavily on my mind these days: We are in Aberdeen, SCOTLAND, so Jon can get his PhD! We do feel that we are where we are supposed to be at this time, but we are wrestling with whether or not we should stay here for a third year of studies come fall. There have been so many amazing financial gifts that have come to us at just the right times over the last two years. God is providing for us in amazing ways. But we are in debt. And we will (most likely) be much further in debt if we stay another year. So I struggle with deciphering whether a desire to stay another year is complete selfishness: a want, but not a need. That makes me wonder if perhaps it is inappropriate to pray that God would provide for such a thing.
(On the other hand, going home could be seen as being equally selfish as I have such a desire to have our boys grow up closer to family. And the blessing of knowing that we would have a cheap place to live in Canada accents my lack of faith and perhaps shows another level of selfishness.)
All that to say, in the end, I don’t know what to pray in this regard. Do I pray we are able to stay here in Scotland or do I pray we are able to go back to Canada? I really don’t know. So instead of praying for one or the other, I ask Him for wisdom and for unity of thought for me and Jon as we seek to do the best thing for our family.